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There is always a concern about having to write a little biography about yourself, whether it be for a weblog or in a resume or having to stand up and introduce yourself to your peers in an office meeting or classroom. Maybe I'm the only one that feels like this -- maybe not -- but I always have this fear that everyone listening or reading what you are about to say about yourself for the first time will automatically file that introduction away as "this is who Vu Ha is" and never give myself a chance to truly reveal who I am through a true, intimate relationship. That's scary because so many things can happen. I could say something about myself that isn't entirely true, and could possibly end up being something I idealize about myself and end up giving false pretenses about myself that I cannot truly live up to, and in trying to live up to that idealistic characteristic, people don't get to know me for who I am but as a faux me. Or I could miscommuniate something to the point that through my misuse of vocabulary or through a stutter or just having gas, everyone meeting me for the first time will believe that I am a total peon, or a jerk, or a pirate. Or the worst is that I could be completely, entirely, truly, truly TRUE about myself and everyone WILL see me for who I am and as I get to know them more throughout the course of our temporary relationship in this thing called life (isn't that what "making friends" is all about? I'm not talking about true friends and deep, intimate relationships, but more about what so many of us humans focus about 75% of our lives on doing -- questing to make as many "friends" as possible. Isn't that what it's all about? A series of insensitive, impersonal phases of "here are my friends....for now") there's is nothing I can do to change that these people that I only plan to spend a small fraction of my life with already know everything there is to know about me. So, because of this irrational (or rational) fear I have, I find it difficult to fully describe who I am when asked to do so in an introductory manner and my diversionary tactic of going on about why I shouldn't do an introductory biography in and within itself will still serve as an introductory biography, possibly causing each and every one of you, the readers, to already have judged me and have categorized me as a neurotic, indifferent, slightly jerky chucklehead who has a knack for writing senseless run-on sentences. If that is the case, my apologies -- you made the mistake of getting to know Vu Ha.